August 7th, 2005

Paul McKenna doesn't seem able to Make ME Thin

Paul McKenna is good - he just hadn't come up against me before. His 'mind altering' CD teaches you:
1. Love yourself then you will be able to control your eating - overeating is a symptom of low self esteem.
2. Start to eat when you are hungry and stop as soon as you feel yourself getting full. If you feel hungry half an hour later that's fine eat again as long as you stop as soon as you feel yourself getting full.
3. Portion sizes will start to decrease because your body will regulate itself and not overeat.
4. Eat what you want not what you think you should eat. And never get weighed again.

Number 1 worked. I can now look at myself in the mirror without the self-disgust - unfortunately I think you're supposed to have to visualise yourself as having lost weight (whoops).

Number 2 and Number 3 don't work for me. My body doesn't register things like hungry and full. The usual way of knowing that I'm hungry is when my blood-sugar goes through the floor and I have a hypo - this means that I sweat, shake and can't put words together - oh and I become a food hoover. I know I'm not alone in this, other diabetics that I've spoken too say that they can't stop eating when they go hypo too.

Number 4. Any lifetime dieter's dream. Since I got the McKenna book and CD I've put on just over a stone.

So I've gone back to the beginning and am calorie counting. This is what I did when I lost 4 stone a few years ago (2 of which I've now put back on). last time I wrote down everything I ate and drank in a book - I was looking at it the other day, I was really good and wrote absolutely everything down. This time I've joined an on line slimming site that does it for you ( they have thousands of foods in their database - even separate supermarkets versions of stuff like milk - there is a US food database - which I haven't seen and a UK food database. They also give lots of different levels for exercise. I'm allowed 1100 calories a day - apparently because of how much extra weight I'm carrying (I'm 224lbs) I get extra calories, because it takes more energy to carry it round (imagine a 200lb person carrying 24lb weights round all the time), so when I lose weight my calories will go down. The good thing, I reckon, with this site is that you 'earn' extra calories through exercise.

Yesterday I messed up I ate a prawn layered salad for tea and then discovered that half of it was a meal (300 calories) so suddenly I was 300 calories overdrawn, so I sat and cycled for half an hour and redeemed them. I get weighed again on Tuesday morning, so I'll let you know how I go on.
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