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Initiation

In 1992 I was initiated into Wicca.  I won't say that I was initiated into witchcraft as I don't believe I was.  The coven I was part of was mainly into the Gods.  We  ( poliphilo & I) left and set up my own coven  after about 22 months, which we ran for about 10 years.    

I had been a practicisng Christian and poliphilo an Anglican priest.  In fact just before I met poliphilo , when I was in hospital, I took communion.  It was like taking a step back from the Christian picture and seeing around it, seeing the Goddess.  If you ask the same questions I did, - if God saw man in his own image where did he find woman & if God was alone where did he find the concept of lonliness - then adding She makes sense.

Before I was initiated I could make a wall 'disappear' and see what was going on outside.  This, and other gifts, vanished on the night I was initiated.  I could see through the eyes of my Gods I didn't need 'magic'.

I now live my life seeing all as Gods.  Everything is part of The Divine - even those that I feel I have every right to hate. 

My Gods aren't omnipotent.  They can be petty.  They make mistakes - I know, after all they live in me.  I can't forgive my Gods the past.  Shit they shrug their shoulders and say tough, but I've learnt that the answer to "why me?" is "why not?  what's special about you."  That has to be the most painful thing ever.

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